Lately, I have come to a large realization.  Now, I do not hate or dislike many people.  I don’t find a reason to honestly, not unless I really do have a reason.

I have been treated like crap to say the least.  Not by everybody, I have some amazing people in my life, but some have destroyed who I was.

College was a tough time for me.  I had a hard time finding my place, and I don’t honestly think I ever did.  I joined a sorority, but then my college experience and my own mental health was destroyed by one of my own sisters.  That is not something I wanted to believe in.

Now, this specific person and I are no longer friends, but I am starting to notice others think I still owe her a vast amount of respect.  All I have to ask is, why?  Why would I respect someone who played with my mind.  Or someone who told others my mental health was “annoying.”  Why would I respect that?

I mean call me crazy but I don’t think I owe her anything.

If I owe anyone anything, its to my family, my friends who have stuck by me, the guy who helped me start to feel like myself again and smile on a daily basis.

So I guess what I am trying to say, is you do not owe everyone respect, even others think you do.  You are your own person.  You deserve to make yourself happy.  Put yourself first.

So please, join me on this journey.  This challenge to put yourself first.  Sometimes, other people don’t deserve your best, and that is okay.  It is a hard realization to make, but you need to do what is right and happy for you.

Live your life the way you want to.  You are the only one who can truly control it.  Don’t let other affect your happiness and mental health.  You deserve all you can give yourself.

and never forget my lovely people, positive vibes only.